My everything prayer

Sometimes the energies around me collide to bring light into our connection with God.  In my life...

• my cousin is in the hospital struggling with a septic infection,
• so many others within my family /friends are struggling with health issues of this and that, and
• so many us are facing the dynamics of mental/emotional/relationship issues. 

Such struggles are real!  And it is in dealing with those anxieties that my sister's meditation spoke about. When we can not do the things that frees us, that bring us pure joy and can not free our minds to be in "the flow"; ie. the times of freedom and rich connections with all the energy in the universe and closeness to God.  Anxiety is the loss of those connections.

At the same time  I watched an AI podcast try to answer the question  with a single word: "what is it that people should do more of?".  Simply, AI answered "pause".  For it is in the pause, ie. the times in-between the stimili of our lives where we stop being automatic. 

I have to constantly force myself to accept that WE ARE NOT GOD - we are human.  

So flow, anxiety and being automatic are all part of my humanity.   I embrace ALL.   Thank you Lord for giving the gift of my humanity. 

Some may ask how can I pray to alleviate the anxieties and/or the full mode stimuli of my automatic self.  In order that I may arrive at the flow/connection?  That I may be free of conscious awareness of my anxieties and stimuli coming into my life. 

I prefer to pray differently.    I pray to embrace my anxieties and stimuli and choose to see God within them.   For it is in everything that I see God so clearly.   

In my sense of loss that I can not relieve my cousin's pain. 
In my sadness of  hearing the struggles of friends/family. 
In my fear that I have hurt my wife and children through by my actions. 
In the observations of our collective society trifling about (on matters of small importance). 

I see God!  This is my everything prayer.   Seeing God in EVERYTHING.   Seeing is my prayer.

This is not to minimize the struggles, differences nor conflicts.  THEY ARE REAL. 

My everything prayer is to be WITH God thru all of it.   To embrace my and all our humanity.   What a gift to have my cousin in my life.  What a gift to have friends/friends in my life.   What a blessing to have such an amazing wife and children.  What an unbelievable gift to live with the societial collective in this time of the universe. 

In my embracing, I surrender ALL.  May God put me to whatever his will asks of me.  That is my FLOW!

John Wesley’s Covenant Prayer 

I am no longer my own, but yours.

Put me to what you will, place me with whom you will.

Put me to doing, put me to suffering.

Let me be put to work for you or set aside for you,

Praised for you or criticized for you.

Let me be full, let me be empty.

Let me have all things, let me have nothing.

I freely and fully surrender all things To your glory and service.

And now, O wonderful and holy God, Creator, Redeemer, and Sustainer,

You are mine, and I am yours. So be it.

And the covenant which I have made on earth,

Let it also be made in heaven. Amen.