A life of stewardship, A life of awesomeness

I was pondering how men approach life in so many different ways.  This led me to reflect on differences between a life of stewardship and a life of awesomeness. This post may sound very bias and superior and come across as full of judgement instead of seeking to share one man's wisdom.  Key is that when you've lived a life of stewardship you know that you've lived a life of doing without certain things.

When I see so many acting on impulses and following so many trends / fads, e.g.: collecting Scotch,  acquiring toy after toy,  and seeking one experience after another.  Collecting and acquiring things in our world is not bad, per se; it is about "without limits".   Yes, such a life of passing one's limits offers experiences of so many wonderful things.  It is the lack of awareness of human limit that I call a life of awesomeness.  (While other men learn to go the limits of what a long life may require. )

Awesomeness.  So many wonderful things and lots of things.  And a life, mostly, without limit. Where if you see something and you have the means and ability to get it - you act and make it a part of your life. It is awesome. 

Somehow this weighs on me.   I can't help but think that each man has different limits and different potential's. Not that it is unfair to have these differences, but to be so aware of the differences.  And then to levy judgment relative to my own sense of values and principles.  I know this is wrong. 

I started this with the idea of sharing wisdom to younger men who may or may not see their impulses; that they may be aware what a life of stewardship could be. It is hard to explain to the young how the benefits of 60 years from now you'll look back.  You will look back!  You'll look NOT at your decisions but where you are 60 years from now.   Hopefully, wyou will see how blessed you are to have lived with your own self-imposed limits.  And the joys, of path you have taken.

Oh very young, what will you leave us this time
You're only dancin' on this earth for a short while
And though your dreams may toss and turn you now
They will vanish away like your dads best jeans
- Cat Stevens, Oh Very Young

Oh young men! I have not lived a life of awesomeness. I have lived a life of stewardship. Yes, there have been moments of entitlement.   I've learned that sense of entitlement leads to giving in to bad choices.   And now near the end, it's not about the bad choices. It is more about the impacts to those around you.

Looking back at those moments of entitlement, yes, they were awesome.   Still such moments were fleeting compared to the amazing richness of my life and the zillion silent choices that did not relate to my entitlement but my self imposed limits. 

How can I explain the richness of this silent / dark energy (why is it called dark?). Never present in my consciousness in my day-to-day. It is hidden somewhere, unreachable like a vapor in-between my reality. My reality is never aware of the space I consume or the energy transferring in, out, and about me. To, from and all around the world. How do I capture this moment of awareness.  Of seeing the in-between spaces of dark energy. 

By awesomeness is in the awareness of self-imposed limits and how rich my choices have affected the space I live in today.

PS. yes, I am very aware of how my God is right along side of me in these thoughts.